It is a new day and new week (and almost a new month) – and new world. I have just come off of what I think will be my last insane work marathon – now stepping into a different way of doing my life. I was hoping and expecting it would be a feeling of relief, euphoria and spaciousness. Instead I am experiencing a touch of anxiety – like a “Now what?”.
You see I have been working hard over the last 4 to 6 weeks to clear my calendar, to remove the things that don’t directly support the trajectory that will move me towards my dreams. It has been impossibly difficult. Saying NO is such an Achilles heel for me, for so many different reasons. And I know that I am not finished with it, but for now, I have carved out enough space to be able to start the real work, that of making my dreams a reality.
Yikes, even writing it feels a bit edgy. But there is it.
And so as I look out over my brave new world (not particularly meant to carry the irony of Shakespeare’s quote)… where I have reduced my clients by half, and have AT LEAST 2 full days dedicated to only idea and business (as in the new business of my dreams) development, I gasp with this thought… “but what am I supposed to do with that time”. How do I make sure it is effectively spent? How do I make sure that I don’t just slip into wasting it on the niggly little details that can surreptitiously take over a whole afternoon (because that is one of my big lies, right, that if I can just get all the details taken care of then everything else will magically unfold)? How to I correctly establish and vigilantly stick to my key priorities?
And while I don’t know the answer itself, I do know that the answer will only come with the help of others. This is not a “by myself” activity. Rather this is an interactive, build the bridge while I walk on it, make a study of it (and maybe even a program out of it) kind of a process. This is life happening.
So, who do I need to be in order to keep this focus (faith and flame)?
Someone who:
- Asks for help, and accepts it
- Remembers the value of and stays committed to myself and my bigger contribution
- Practises the sacred art of “no thank you, not right now”
- Is humbly willing to admit that I don’t know how this goes, as I forage into uncharted territory and trust that I will be guided and cared for on the journey
- Embraces vulnerability
- Values stillness as a way to my own heart and knowing
- Trusts myself and the universe and listens to my still small voice
- Speaks my truth as soon as I am clear on it
- Finds the fun in everything, seeing what is right, even when it scares me
- Knows when enough is enough, like right now in not trying to create a perfect or exhaustive list of who I need to be
And how will I keep to that?
- With your help
- With my vision
- With daily practises
- With ongoing commitment and dedication
- With honesty, revealing when I am falling off the beam again
- And probably so much more that I don’t even know yet.
Here is to new worlds and new ways. Both mine and yours.
What is it going to take for you to find and pursue your significant contribution?
