What does vulnerability have to do with YES? Everything.
As I have been stepping more into the vulnerability – asking for what is important to me, but doing so from the place of surrender, knowing that I could get a No, even to my dreams… I am getting more yeses. Hmmm. Go figure. To me I always assumed that the more vulnerable, and exposed I was, the weaker I was and the more likely I was to get taken advantage of, treated like a doormat, and generally misused and abused. Power and strength were the only things that could keep me safe.
And so there is the paradox. The “safety” that comes from power is one that creates barriers and distance and separation. It makes us other. If you know what I mean. Instead of seeing that we are just two different manifestations of the same life-force. The “safety” that comes from vulnerability is that I am allowing that life-force to just flow through me, to show up as it will, and I trust that what comes is right. From there I can be unattached to the response, because I am unattached to the outcome. If I don’t get what I want here, I can allow the universal flow to bring it to me in another way. Or whatever. From the inherent vulnerability of the feminine the only outcomes I am seeking are happiness, fun and pleasure, and those never come from just one or two places. Life is filled with them, if we allow ourselves to explore and discover.
I am also noticing that when I ask from pseudo vulnerable, or trying to be vulnerable, or not quite surrendered but sort of – well it is not as effective. I get resistance, and maybe’s, or no responses at all. The more I am at 100% vulnerable, the more yeses I get. I can let the yeses be the indicator of my state of being, my measuring stick.
Which then begs the question: How do I choose vulnerability? As a consistent practise? Well isn’t that the $1million question. And the one that I will keep exploring…
What do you do?