Welcome to the new year. A time when we are all making resolutions, or at least intentions, about how this year can and will be different. What changes we crave and what new ways of being that we imagine would make this year a brave new world.
When I read others versions I get inspired, so here is my fuel for the collective fire …
This year I want to move into IMPROV SIGNY. No spell check, I don’t mean improve Signy, although really, at its heart that is what I am talking about. I think it would be an improved me if I allowed for the unscripted, messy version of me and what I am thinking and what I am saying. If I said what was on my mind – when it was on my mind. If I didn’t hold back, be diplomatic and polite, proper and “nice” (yes, that is one of my four letter words), letting my “be impressive” Saboteur win. If I risked the vulnerability of being wholly myself without worrying about if I would fit in. That would be the best me. And maybe most importantly the happiest, most fulfilled me. That is something worth striving for.
Now having done a 360 evaluation or two in my time, I know that mostly the world sees me as very self-expressed. Someone who speaks their mind, is authentic and doesn’t hold back. Here is the thing that might shock you – I am only saying about 60% of what is going on. That is not to say that I should be speaking 100% of what runs through my brain, unfiltered. But that stuff that I am constraining because I am afraid it will make me look bad in your eyes, or might be too much for you to handle, or I want to keep my options open by not being too real – those are the things that need expressing – and I think 2013 is the year.
Not sure how to enact it, but I am ready to commit to the intension of it, like a great big experiment – and learn from it, see what I see, and discover new things about me and the world around it. Should be exciting!!
Then, of course, the more FUN, less busy/stressed trajectory that I started on during 2012 Q4. The ENOUGH already clause. The “it is time to stop being there for everyone else, keeping my word to others, but not being there for me and not being in integrity with myself, in moving toward my dearest desires and wishes” piece. It’s time. Well it is past time and truly overdue, but let’s just say … it is time. This will look like:
- more white space (for creative exploration of my dreams)
- more (I will even take … some) real vacations where I completely unplug and do some nothing and be responsible for no one but myself
- more play
- more laughing
- more creativity
- more stillness and silence
- more simplicity
- more time with friends
- more saying no to the stuff that is strictly for others
- no to overbooking, overcommitting and overwhelming
Even writing it is causing a BIG exhale in me.
The other thing I commit to is working or living or something … the book by Deepak Chopra, The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success. I love the simplicity of these concepts, and it is clear that the real depth is in the daily practise of it. Again not sure exactly how this commitment will unfold, but my current thinking is that I take one law per month and really live them. Obviously I will blog my process and learning … and I would love to have some company along the way … so, anyone? Want to join me? I think it will be very transformative.
So that is me … how about you? What are you up to for this new year?